I'm so bummed...

Well today Lily leaves to go to her dad's until the 20th (that's 19 sleeps! lol). She's still sleeping (lazy-butt), but when she wakes up we'll spend the day together, probably go swimming if it doesn't rain and just chill until 6. Hopefully I can wait until she's out the door before I start crying. 20 days is forever, I hate being without her. My whole world revolves around her (literally) so when she's gone just absolutely sucks! This is also the longest she's ever been gone. She's not excited, but she's not upset, so that's good. I try to make it as positive as I can, but it's hard on both of us. The past two days have been kind of hectic with her. She is being a big time PITA. Whining, crying over nothing, arguing, and I totally knew what it was about. That's just the way she shows her emotion. She does not act like that, unless she is upset about something. Last night she and I went to get some dinner and in the car I asked her to please stop getting so upset and being so ugly to me. Her response was that she was mad that she had to go to her dad's. I said well that's not mommy's fault, there is nothing we can do about it. What she said back, really shocked me, she said that she was trying to get in trouble so I wouldn't let her go to her dad's....what a smart girl! Just shows you how a little 4 year old's mind works.